It has been 32 months since my Biggest Loser Finale and I will be the first to admit that I am not exactly where I imagined I would be. My fitness level is nowhere near what it was when I left ranch and I have definitely gained weight…a lot of it!  Now I could ramble on about all of the reason “why” I feel the last 32 months have been so “tough” for me but I am going to spare you the excuses and keep it real.  It is my personal belief that in order for someone to learn from their mistakes they have to first admit that they have made one.  So what am I trying to get at here…or better yet…what mistake am I referring to?  It’s what I like to call “Owning it”.  I am not very good at “owning it” meaning, I have a very hard time recognizing and accepting where I am and what I have done.  Prior to the Biggest Loser I would hate looking at pictures of myself.  I would delete them off of someones camera if I didn’t like them or just exclude myself from the photo all together.  It’s almost as if I didn’t actually see myself like that…then it wasn’t really true.  I found the same thing on the other end of the scale.  I lost total of 167 lbs.  I was the smallest I had ever been in my adult life yet…I did not see it.  I did not “own it”.  I kept looking for that extra 20 lbs never celebrating where I was and how far I had come.  I see it time and time again where people give credit to every other person in the world for their personal accomplishments yet they for some unknown reason just cannot own the fact that THEY did the work.  They made it happen.  They made the change.  This ladies and gentleman is something I need to learn to do.  I need to own the good and the bad. I need to accept the fact that when I have gained weight…I did that.  I do not care what the circumstances were surrounding it.  I did it.  I also need to acknowledge that when I lose weight.  I did that too.  I cannot brush it off as a fluke or “water weight”.  If we keep downgrading our accomplishments we will never reach our full potential in life.